Hey guys! This is my first time ever writing a journal (thats not a story) on DeviantArt before
and I have a few things to say (nothing bad, I promise!)First:
I'm really sorry if I don't seem very active with postings of drawings or anything else! I take a long time with doing an image- starts off on paper, then scanning it and finishing it on photoshop and my more newly acquired program Clip Studio Paint (which I'm still learning all the tools and brushes- theres so many things to discover!!
). I have a bad habit of starting and then going on and off with the image depending on my mood or how I feel about the drawing, which can depend on the music I listen to while working on the drawing. it also doesn't help that I'm a procrastinator and get distracted easily at times.Second:
Feel free to talk with me in notes or anywhere else you might know me on. I love to have conversations with other people and get to know them/ become friends. I know I might seem really quiet and uninterested about posting things here, but sometimes I don't post personal things for reasons. 1)
I don't want to sound like a whiner 2)
I don't always like expressing my thoughts and feelings (I prefer to deal with things myself and not get others involved) and become some sort of drama queen 3)
(part of third below)Third:
theres another reason why I don't post many things. I'm my own harshest critic on what I make and I want it to be better but don't know how, resulting in me keeping it locked up until I figure out how. I can get very nervous about showing my drawings, because I tend to get embarrassed about the things I create. This also includes drawings of shows I'm a fan of/ enjoy watching and I get afraid of showing those things or don't feel like I should if I've never played the game before and only watched others play it. This kinda ties into a fear of being seen as childish and getting teased for that so I don't show/ post those drawings.
Kinda silly reason, but its one I have a hard time overcoming and a part of me I'm scared to admit to others.
So yeah... I want to thank the people who look at my drawings and watch me. I'm sorry for the slow posting and hopefully I'll get more productive and faster with uploading drawings so theres no huge stretch of time between each posting.